There are SO many thing in this world that I want to do, most of them bordering idiotic but I want to do them anyway.
In fact there are so many things in my bucket list that they can’t even fit into a bucket.
I know !
But sometimes and under some conditions, circumstances and situations we are not able to accomplish those dreams.
Obviously then we are sad
but to put a cherry on the top of the cake
somehow and from somewhere ( for eg. from our personal hell a.k.a. facebook )
a bomb drops quoting in a calligraphic handwriting that so and so person is now doing so and so thing
that YOU already reserved the right to do !
then comes the phases…….
PHASE 1 : SHOCK AND HEART WRENCHING SADNESS
You feel betrayed, shocked and sad.
It is a betrayal like no other ,
even if the person didn’t know that you wanted to do or be that thing
from the bottom of your heart !
PHASE 2 : JEALOUSY
You feel extremely jealous
because it was you who had dreams about accomplishing that thing
and somebody else just comes in hacks your dreams
and go their merry effing way.
Oh hell no !
And then you start hating that person for a little time
like a second or maybe 2 minutes,
depends on how close you are to that person.
PHASE 3 :ENVIOUS MODE
Now because your heart is not in agreement with your brain
and since brain is scared that the heart will stop sending blood to him
( seriously heart is an epic physical and emotional blackmailer )
you start obsessing over the fact that somebody else is accomplishing things in your place.
You start portraying yourself as that person and imagine all of the things that would have happened
if you were in his or her place !
PHASE 4: ACCEPTANCE
Finally you are able to adapt to the fact that somebody else gets to live your dreams
and you are thus no longer jealous of that person
but still envious and ready to move on.
PHASE 5 : MOVING ON
Now you have moved on
and don’t even remember this thing happened because frankly
ain’t anybody got time for that !
And after a long long time you are normal again and have stopped PMS-ing !
something else happens that triggers the above mentioned phases all over again
and my dear folks you are screwed all over again .
you should always know that its okay ,
in fact its human to go through all of these phases,
you do not need to hate yourself for that
but what you should understand is that you have a life,
others do too but that is only where the similarities end.
Live YOUR life .
do not imagine yourself in others.
envy yourself and thou shall move forward.